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last post... [Apr. 22nd, 2007|11:03 pm]
calling all fangirls...UNITE!
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[doglvr5678]
ive decided that i need to stop posting to this comm

for me, yaoi has become an unhealthy addiction that ive just been using like a drug - to get a high. it does, as many of you here know, bring a rush to the senses and it pleases us so much, but it has dragged me far down after looking at yaoi every single day.

i am using it in an unhealthy wa: to fill emptyness with temporary happiness, and have now decided to stop looking altogether. if you are feeling the same way, or you know deep down that it is hurting you, i encourage you to stop as well. (i know that nothing i say on here can change how you live your life, but if you have that empty feeling despite the rush, or you keep needing more and more pics to look at, its a sign of an addiction.)

this is coming from the girl who posted steamy boyxboy pics all over the web, ENCOURAGING others to look at them...

i know now that ive heard it from people with large life experience: God is the one thing which can satisfy the emptiness, and he doesnt hate me for looking at yaoi, but he loves me for stopping and turning to him to fill me instead.

if anyone has any similar feelings as these, leave a post and i would love to talk with someone for support that i(or we) are not alone. thanks and still love you :)
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[User Picture]From: floralcloud
2007-04-29 12:20 pm (UTC)
I once decided to give up yaoi for other reasons- but like you, it was only a distraction for me so I wouldn't have to think about my real problems.

However, since I am not religious, I don't take comfort in God, but if it works for you, I hope you find fulfillment out of it.
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From: doglvr5678
2007-04-30 05:41 am (UTC)
thanks! its nice to know im not alone :)

this whole thing is a process for me...a very long process...
and this addiction has run pretty deep in me, so it will be better when its out of my life.

are there any other reasons why you gave up yaoi? it is a big distraction, yea.
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[User Picture]From: floralcloud
2007-04-30 08:53 pm (UTC)
I know that it will sound really close-minded of me, but one of my close friends has recently "come out" to me. Somehow, it awakened the feeling that homosexuality was sick and wrong, so I gave it up.

For me, I had some serious issues with myself- internal problems, and I just read yaoi and mangas so I wouldn't have to think about it.

But, no. You're definitely not alone. :D
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[User Picture]From: catalus913
2007-05-06 03:45 am (UTC)
Yaoi is kinda just a look at it every once in awhile thing for me, a the last couple summers it was a major obsession xD I love reading a good yaoi fic and buying a doujin every so often but I gave up the hardcore stuff and really lessened my intake of it. It helped, alot. I also felt as a christian that it wasn't the greatest thing to look at either =X

I never got addicted to it, but I loooovveedd yaoi waaay too much =X It just didn't feel right to me so I backed off alot.

Do whatever feels right to you. If you still like it, ease down to a little softcore stuff every now and then. It feels better to read softer stuff every so often then hard core smut daily >.>
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From: doglvr5678
2007-05-08 01:09 am (UTC)
thanks :)
im trying to ween myself off the stuff, i just cant do cold turkey...
but yea, like you, i loved it waaay too much and felt bad about it after so long and it took away from my time!
...but i still love death note XD
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